Now heres an interesting state of affairs..... I am the mother of one!!! One, I say! Well ok, I'm still the mother of seven but only one is still under my wing so to speak, still hanging on my every word (I wish), still asking my advice or my thoughts (and occasionally heeding them), still spending lots of time creating, reading and travelling the countryside with me. Its a novel occurrence really but one I'm finally beginning to embrace.
For many years I mourned that my troop were gradually thinning and there were no more babies on the horizon - don't get me wrong, I'm not a clingy mother at all but I'd been mothering for so long and felt kind of special having them all with me (yes, I've seen a therapist haha!). As they've grown up and moved on, my place in the world became less important, I thought, and I felt a bit useless and empty. And tired too. Definitely tired.
Last week the third last one moved out. Now there are only two at home - which I remind myself is 'normal' and what most people have - and the 16 year old has a full time job (apprentice chef) so he's mostly not here - so theres just the baby and I and Stuy when he's not at work too. We spend our days in a much quieter manner than ever before, Miss Bliss and I, and I like it.
I do.
Finally, I do.
It must be so different with just one after seven!!! I only have one child, a boy who's just reached his double-digits, and I can't imagine the quietness without him at home. His "noise" and activity fill the silence. (Sometimes, silence would be golden though;)
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It doesn't seem that long ago they were small children enjoying craft and garden and seasonal activities...time flies!
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